there are those that want.
And there are those that WANT!! As in whatever it takes.
I am not those that ties happiness to the process. To me that is a very nostalgic poetic theoretic, and lobby dobby not realistic, no time for that , way of viewing things.
Note I am not jabbing at the poster... I said FOR ME that is not the case.
I NEED my freedom. I am not happy sitting till the late hours writing SEO for my website.
I am not happy telling a seller that needs money for their sick child's operation that I can only pay $70K for their house instead of $120K she should be getting.
I am not friggin HAPPY to drive all over friggin damn CT looking at houses that may or may not lead to a damn deal.
What drives me, is when I see people like Brandon doing podcasts from friggin Hawaii while I am freezing my monkey nuts off hustling so I can be able to be free, and live life on MY damn terms when I make it.
I used to stare at a bag of crab legs in the super market.my mind says NO you greedy animal you can't afford it, while my belleh says .. dude, that with butter.. are you kidding? GET IT.. just for me to ge it, put it in my cart walk to the register to then turn around and put it back because I know I can't afford that stuff.
Why I do it? Thinking how my parents sacrificed everything so I could get a solid education without having to work a day during college because I was nose deep in Complex equations of linear and nonlinear thermodynamics and chaotic flows", and couldn't sacrifice the time to work while studying! And now someone needs to take care of them! And it sure as hell ain't going to be my brother or my sister... as they are too busy with providing for themselves!
No, sorry. for me it is not some happiness attachment. For me is is do or friggin die. I am relentless unyielding because I NEED to live life on my damn terms!
I will crush, destroy, annihilate, obliterate, dominate anyone in my way to that goal. When I say I need this, I friggin NEED THIS!
What keeps me going when things are getting you nowhere?
Very simple really...
The alternative simply is not acceptable!