Can a agent Resend their License? I Don't want license anymore.

Hi All,

I'm a frustrated new agent that is getting pressure from everyone to become a Realtor and I don't want to. Because I don't I am being told I won't last long as a agent, I'm making a bad decision, you can't succeed as a non realtor, etc. 

Everything was okay when I started in Sep. of 2018 (even though I didn't make one sale) and as of Jan. 2019 my Broker had to let go of all of her non-realtor agents, me. So now my license is inactive and I can't even refer or get a referral fee. As a household of one income the $$ I made from sales was going to go towards paying for my real estate fees (and possibly becoming a Realtor from all of the pressure). Now I have no job and a useless license.

I don't want my real estate license anymore and would rather do wholesale deals instead. Can I resend my license? Being inactive still requires me to abide by all licensing laws and I couldn't do wholesale deals. I just want to do real estate without all the BS.