I had so much anxiety about pulling the trigger. 

If they are on it for depression or anxiety you can be guaranteed they are conning the system.

@Curt Davis of course you are right but the anxiety level and cost factors are what keeps me at home.

.  :-)People's anxiety is directly correlated to the first derivative of ... anything. 

My wife, who lived her entire life in a detached single family home, has much more anxiety than I do regarding our living standards.

Every day, I held my breath waiting for the new tenants to call me saying the house was flooding (talk about anxiety!).

In fear and anxiety, you quickly lash out, with personal attacks, say there Mom is fat, there butt is hairy, whatever, because God-forbid anyone find out your just a wind-bag who randomly barks BS plucked from thin air for attention. yeah, I get it, I got exactly who you are and your point, I just don't give a sh#t.

But – I would seek to reduce any anxiety about the quality or reputation of the company.I think what often happens here is that sometimes we accidentally don’t compare apples to apples.

Although there were aspects to working with clients that I enjoyed and my income was similar to yours for those formative years, those commission checks often came with a heavy load of stress and anxiety and time away from my family. 

Psilocybin will be even bigger as it has even broader medical benefits - alzheimer's, addiction, depression and anxiety plus its not habit forming.